Fakeship

I've heard this word from one of my friend. At first, I thought this word is too much.

But, by the time goes on, I realized that I'm doing this word too. I'm faking my face, my words to certain people that I don't really like. Pretend like there nothing's wrong, like I've had forgave them for what they ever did to me or everybody around me. And let me tell you, doing those things are just EXHAUSTING.

One day, in the morning, I just felt like I can't handle it again. I'm tweeting and mentioned one of my friend, tell her that I will stop pretending. Pretending that I am good. That I am healed from what this one girl did to one of my friend. That I am ok with her worse attitude. Her fake smile to my friend, her fake words, her fake attitude. I am done with her.

I will be good. Maybe I'll healed. It takes time. And when the times come, everything will never be the same again between me and her. Because I don't want to.