It's OK.

I'm ok with the sleepless night.

I'm ok with the less nutrition I got.

I'm ok with people making fun on what just happen.

I'm ok with me have to be away for a while.

I'm ok with the horrible feeling that appears right now.

I'm ok with the anger that's controlling me for the time being.

I'm ok with the hatred that's filling my heart and mind.

Because I know, eventually, everything is going to be alright. And I know it's getting better and better as the time goes by. I can feel it.

I know, you will coming back. But.. I don't have anything left to be given.

So trust me, it's ok. And I, in fact, am really ok.

When the right key finally arrived

I thought my door would never be open again for any reason. And I'm almost ready for it.
But something strange happen. Something warm and comforting come sneak into my door.
I'm not ready for it, I'm not planning for it. Then my heart starts making a boundary so that thing won't touch me too far.
Once again, it works. But.. The warm and comforting feeling already filled up my heart in someway.
It's nice. I feel better than ever. Then I become indecisive.

Because.. I'm afraid if I start, I will never stop. And he feels the same way.

We will still be, friends forever.

Today is my graduation day. And now I'm officially being a bachelor degree! Yihiw!



Thank you guys for everything. For always being my friends, shoulders, laughs, family, smiles, for being my everything. Surely I will missed our time together.

Congratulation class of 2009, WE DID IT!! ♥♥♥

You.

The smart person,
The family man,
The hard worker,
The insensitive guy,
Who really fun to be with,
Who have a good manhood value,
Who never complain about anything,
Who always made my early morning.

I won't ask for another man to stay beside me.

For me, life is like a traffic jam.

Queue.
Walk slowly.
Many obstacles.
Drain a lot of energy.
But at the end, you sure will get to your purpose.

I've drive a lot, so I made a parable that related with the situation on the street.
You will always queue when you meet a traffic jam. You will always walk slowly to get to your destination. You'll find more and more obstacles. You must drain a lot of energy to get through the traffic. But at the end, you sure will get your purpose.

You will not meet this traffic jam in every hours or every day in your life. But trust me, you will find, at least one, in your life. Just remember that you will always reach your desire. No matter what.

Maybe sometimes you have a choice to turn to another way that offers a path with no obstacles. But no one knows what's on that path. Sometimes it's an empty road with no barriers, but sometimes you'll find a traffic that more severe than your previous way.

Just walk through ahead, people. No matter how hard it is, or how crowded it is. You sure will always get to your destination.

It's almost two years.

Jar, it's almost 2 years since you've been gone.
I miss you so much, really.
I always need your postcard from heaven, you know that.
And I'll wait for that postcard to come. Always.

Serene

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Semua indah pada waktunya

Santai saja kawan
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Kau pasti bisa
Menjadi suatu hari dengan pagi yang baru
Tenang saja kawan
Hadapilah semua

SAINT LOCO | Santai saja

Please,

stay beside me.

I need you.

GOD,
Mom,
Dad,
Sister,
And you, my morning mood booster! ♥